Yet Again I Wonder ?

*i didnot make this art , credit to the artist who did.

well i ever feel real ?

I have been wondering .. and i am scaring myself per usual but i dont think i can handle being real and  just living without daydreaming , without engaging and just closing my mind from anything real and reality , and to let that go im left to face myself or my thoughts alone clearly , and it scares me to the potential of what i can be , will i be able to reach it and please the voice in my head ?

the one who i would love to believe is the real me , but what if i cant please it and just keep on wanting more , what will happen if i let go , if i allow it to pour out whatever it is inside me will people still see me the same , will my mom still be proud of me and praise me. I act like i dont need it but i crave it , who will i meet if she come out , who will i look like ? 
 what will i get involved into ????... am i ready to face it all , to just wear that mask and just hold everything in , but most importantly how will i get there , will i just explode and just unleash it ? or will i just get so nump and empty that i wont care anymore ?

i wonder ..





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-M